What now?

Have you ever felt totally heartbroken, with out even realizing at first?

It happened to me just last night. Well, early this morning to be more specific. 

Backstory: There was this guy that I met this semester at school, he's a freshman theatre major, so naturally he joined our little family and we hung out all the time. I felt close enough to him to tell him things that only a few people know, so he was obviously special to me. But I didn't know just how special. Last night, he told me that he started dating a friend of his that I had met around Halloween (super nice girl), and I was honestly crushed. Completely heart broken. Apparently there were feelings that I pushed into the back corners corners of my mind, and when I realized I missed the chance I never knew I wanted, it killed me. 

Isn't it crazy how the things that don't affect you at all in general can impact you so much in such a split second? 

-A

(Inspiration for this post also came from a late night conversation with Jocelyn from The Undecided Girl shortly after the story occurred)
(Package update: I got my wallet today and I'm in love.

my other ones should be here Thursday/Friday!)