Tonight/this morning/today (it's 2 AM right now) I've been thinking about stuff and I wanted to use my "sappy emotional blogger rant" post for the month. I try to never post things like these, but I needed somewhere to collect my thoughts.
I'm done.
Emotionally and mentally done.
All this semester/since the new year started I've been trying extremely hard to not let things get me down and keep a positive look on things. And I've been doing a great job if I do say so myself. Until now.
Lately things have been snowballing, and I don't think my brain can hold anymore emotional damage right now. It's literally been one thing after the other, and after a talk I had with a friend tonight I had finally had the final straw and broke down. Complete emotional and mental breakdown. I just felt like I couldn't hold it in any longer. I know it's not good to hold all your feelings in like that, and I really haven't been. I've let out a few good cries lately but mostly just stress crying, nothing with real meaning. Until tonight that is.
I've been trying to be so happy for so long that I think my brain was a little too over-capacity. I'm just so done trying to act happy and put on a brave face and it eventually got to me. So here I am ranting about my feelings for you guys because hey, this is what blogging is for. Plus it was nice to get away from the fun, girly stuff for a day.
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